resurfacing from a dry spell

Have you ever felt like you've hit a creative wall?

That's been me for the past two days. I've been trying to lay down some beats — and it's been a struggle. Since 2012, making music has been my thing. It’s more than a hobby; it’s a passion. But after taking a two-year hiatus, I jumped back in a few days ago, only to find that I'm not quite happy with anything I'm producing.

I started with some dubstep groove, then shifted gears to a techno track, and now I'm contemplating sticking with it. But, honestly, the joy and satisfaction aren't there at the moment.

the dead author · nobody trusts anybody now, and we're all very tired.
the dead author · age of madness (rough idea, sample)

Why am I sharing this with you?

There's a valuable lesson here about persistence, creativity, and the importance of keeping at it—even when the going gets tough. From 2012 to 2015, I was on fire. I was trying new things every day, enjoying every moment of it. But now, there’s this undeniable sense of struggle. Part of me blames it on getting older, but deep down, I know that's just an excuse. This shouldn't be happening, especially with something I consider one of my greatest passions.

So, what now?

I'm entertaining the idea of working on another EP. That's how I've operated in the past: take a break, come back, and dive into a project for a few months before emerging with something new. It's time to get back on track, reignite that spark, and rediscover the joy of creating music.

I'll return to it tonight, seeing where the music takes me. It's not just about producing another track or EP; it's about reconnecting with a part of myself that I've missed dearly.

If you're feeling stuck in your creative endeavors, know that you're not alone. It's part of the process. The key is to keep pushing, experimenting, and, most importantly, giving yourself the grace and time to find your rhythm again.

Here's to getting back in the groove, making beats that make us feel alive, and never losing sight of why we started in the first place.